LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA: Kim Kardashian has let out her emotions in the latest episode of The Kardashians! The 42-year-old talked candidly with her sister Khloe about parenting and its struggles. The SKIMS founder said that she wants her ex-husband Kanye West to be at his best and healthy again for their children. "Your instinct is to be like, wow I can never talk to this person again. But then you think of your babies. And so I'm having a hard time figuring it out," she explained. Kim and Kanye share four children together, North 10, Saint, seven, Chicago, five, and Psalm, four.
Later in the episode, Kim is seen cuddling with Saint before her voice cuts in from a confessional, "I am in the trenches, I'm the one doing all the daily stuff all the time. I do the morning routine, I do the night routine. It's like a pit stop with race cars." She addressed how the children feel that they are missing out on dad’s love, "I am just in protection mode of my kids and just try to hide everything. It's just hard for me to figure out, if they don't know anything, why wouldn't dad come over for dinner? Why isn't dad at my things?"
'No. I'm not OK'
She said, "That kills me. Because then I'm embarrassed that people are going to say something at a game or a function. Is it safe, is it dangerous? I just don't know what to do. So I've been managing it the best way that I know how because I want my kids to see a healthy dad. It's just a lot." The conversation between the two siblings started when Khloe while sitting in her office asked Kim, "Are you OK?" to which Kim responds, "No. I'm not OK. I'm having such a hard day today," reports People.
'But you keep looking for that person'
The mother-of-four addressed Kanye’s anti-semitic comment. "It sucks when someone doesn't see how different they are. Before producers (off camera), chip in with "But you keep looking for that person." "I always will," Kim responds. "You'll always hope that you'll see a glimpse of them. I hope I do."
She further explains, "It's really confusing for me. It's so different than the person that I married because that's who I loved and that's who I remember ...I 'll do anything to get that person back. The whole situation is sad and I don't know how to handle it."
